Redemption

God of failure,

God of light

Dim in the distance

Hushed in the night.

Living this pain

These trifles, they bruise.

Is life lived in vain

In this game, I lose.

Hearts speak comfort

Then scream obscenity

And the retort

Is the blood of entropy.

Bodies burning and heaving

Aching in pain and disgust

And the angels they sing

Over men of dust.

Is this heaven

I demand, so lost.

I cannot, a man

Fathom the cost.

I ask the question -

So human and perverse

Do you exist

In this, my desolate universe?

And the silence closes in

So the years pass by

And the planets, they spin

Until I give in and die.

Can you redeem alone

This bottomless soul

This skin and bones

Surrounding a hole?

Save me by small chances

To grasp the light

In bitter circumstances

Before the coming of night.

And in the silence of my request

In the bowels of pain

A voice repressed

Comes to me again.

"You don't even have to breathe -

I'll put air in your chest

And you don't have to grieve

I'll bring life to all the rest.

And this land will open for you

And these hills under the sun

For I have pursued you

And loved you by my son.

And these days will lighten

And stretch out to the sky

And your heart will soften

And cease to wonder why."